Patrick Ward words, code, and music

A Short Intermission

This is a short intermission, to briefly reflect on what I’ve discovered about this project over the past week. It also gives me a chance to recover a little after getting my wisdom teeth out this morning. I’m a little doped up on pain killers right now, so the thinking cap isn’t screwed on as tight as I’d like it to be. In fact, I’m not even sure I have it on.

Worry Revisited

I talked about worry in a previous post, about how it can act like a drug and keep you from making intelligent decisions.

Today, I overcame another worry of mine. Namely, the extraction of my third molars, commonly called “wisdom teeth”. I know, I’m a little old to be getting my wisdom teeth extracted, but they’ve never really been a problem until now.

It’s always more complicated to extract them beyond the age of 25. I’ll be 42 in February. So, when the doctor started to warn me about all of the possible complications, I naturally applied them directly to my overactive imagination and found some wonderful nightmares to accompany me in the nights leading up to today. I’ll have to recall of few of those at a later date.

The point, however, is that the only thing worry provided me with is a nice set of horrific images to plague my mind with and possibly some stories to accompany them.

Writing Surprises Me

As I’ve been forcing myself to write each night, I’m finding that I surprise myself every time. For example, last night I wasn’t sure if I would be able to write anything — my mind was spinning about today’s extractions. It took me quite a while to get started, and when I did the story that I had envisioned became something completely different. Previous nights have been similar.

What I’m finding, is that sometimes the most important thing I can do is just BEGIN. Somehow, the rest takes care of itself if I can just muster enough courage and momentum to start.

Of course, I’d like to spend more time on these posts and give them some proper time for rewrites. But, in the spirit of making this 30 day trial work, I’m willing to allow these raw thought forms to exist as is. I’m willing to accept the consequences of a few bad apples in order to extract the wisdom I’ll gain from following through on this challenge.

I do, however, have some short fiction ideas that I’m holding onto for after the 30 day trial.

I’m starting to see this 30 days as a boot camp for the future.

Spreading the Love

I’ve been in the software development trenches for over 15 years. I’ve been “on” the internet and working with related technologies since it’s inception. Yet, in all that time, I’ve neglected the social aspects of the web. I’ve only just begun to discover services such as Facebook, Twitter, and some online forums.

Since I’ve returned from CGW, though, I’ve been trying to make an effort and become more social, both online and in my day-to-day connections. The results have been surprisingly fulfilling. I’m finding that I enjoy interacting with all of these lovely people that I’ve met either online or in person.

It’s been a splendid thing to have people comment on what I’ve said or done. Yet, even more so, it’s been a complete honor to be able to spread that love and let others know how much I appreciate their work.

I know, it sounds silly, but when you came up from the underground lairs like I did, the lights can be a little startling at first. It’s nice to know that my eyes are starting to adjust and I can see all of these magnificent pathways in front of me now.