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Another Short Intermission

More stories are coming, they’re just taking their own sweet time. Part of the problem, is that the stories I want to tell require longer intervals than a quick typing session at the end of the night. In a way, that may be a good sign. I’m trying to think about these stories more; give them more life, stronger characters, and deeper emotion. I’m trying to garner a deeper understanding of the method, but that also means more practice. Unfortunately, some of these practice sessions just aren’t blog worthy. They are snippets of scenes and exercises that are of interest only to me.

Of course, there are also unfinished stories too. There is the beginning of story that I think is quite interesting, but it needs to be finished and then revised. There are ideas for more, but they require a little research. And, there are the plucky memoirs, but I’ve been so focused on the practice, that I haven’t had the energy spew them out for the blog.

And then, there is that sneaky little inner critic that keeps showing up. He’s the guy that, for the past few days, has been relentlessly stealing my sense of humor. He’s over there, right now, stomping up and down on it and laughing like a crazed jester on PCP. Urggh! I hate that guy! He’s so smug.

After tonight, there are only 5 more posts before I’ve hit my 30 posts in 30 days goal. I’m really, very stoked about it too. It has opened up a whole new set of ideas for me to pursue.

Yet, it has also plagued me with a new set of skills that I need to master. I feel very much like I did when I began my programming career. I wanted to have the skill, knowledge, and insight that I have now at the beginning. The only problem is that it took several years for me to get to this point as a software developer. In between, I studied nearly every language out there, wrote hundreds of thousands of lines of code, and studied even more code from other code jockeys. Writing is very similar, especially fiction, in that it requires tremendous amounts of dedication, perseverance, and practice to master. I have a good start, but I’m realizing how clunky my writing can be at times. My only solace is that, a year from now, or five years from now, I’ll be able to look back on these early days and be proud of the gumption I had, that I stuck my nose out there and told the world that I wanted to tell stories.

So, I hope you’ll forgive me for this short, boring post. I expect the next few days will have a few ups and downs as I try to finish out the project with honor. Yet, to tell you the truth, I’m looking forward to what will occur after the project is complete, when I can begin to focus on longer term projects that have greater depth. Of course, I will continue to post to the blog, just not on a daily basis; more likely 2-3 times a week with a greater emphasis on stories and articles.

And, please, never mind the idiot in the jester cap over there on stage left. He’s really just an attention whore at best.